just here, sitting wondering if there is anything to write about. to be frank, there isn't.... wait.. so after having 3 hours of sleep, i walked across town to pay a few bills, buy stamps, and load up on some groceries. i also paid my grandparents a visit... i guess i must have been a tad tired, i kind of slept for about an hour while i was over there. so for about five days ive been spittin up blood... i'm a little concerned.. i think it might be allergies.. perhaps my veins got too dry and they burst? i hope it's gone by tommorow. last night it finally hit me that the guy i've been speaking to(on and off.. over the internet... pathetic.. yes i'm aware of that now)is nothing more than a manipulative, self-centered imbecil. i dont enjoy playing little games, i'm not a child... i mean, if he's going to attempt the mind games.. at least be amusing... ":( i thought you weren't there.."... that's so gawdy. regardless of how my perception of him, i still feel some empathy... it's pretty depressing.. his life that is.. all he does is go to work... get home.. myspace.. messenger... sleep at 3am... is free on sundays and mondays... wow.... what was i thinking??? what was he thinking???!!