Yesterday started out really good with school being cancelled. However, that luck changed. I had plans to go to Matt's and maybe snowmobile for the first time in my life and my mom was gonna take me. Well she didn't. Go figure. You see, my truck is the shop getting the heater coil fixed when that comes in from CA and can't handle on ice. Anyways, Mom had agreed to take me over after she took a conference call from New York for Girl Scouts. Well, that call was at 9:00 a.m. and took until 11:30 a.m. I was getting more down every half hour. I didn't want to be home, I wanted to be at Matt's. I still don't understand why Mom didn't drop me off on the way to the office. Oh well. So, Matt called around 11:00 a.m. and he got a little mad at me. I came across like I had reverted back to myself from last year, but in truth I was just frustrated and feeling shoved aside like I always do when Mom is home and gone, which is so normal. I ended up hanging up on Matt because of emotional storm and wouldn't pick up at all when he called back 2 times. Even his mom called and I didn't pick up. They kept calling, but I couldn't talk. Well, Matt came and got me and apologized for getting mad, which I wasn't mad about. His dad took us and 2 others Christmas shopping and that took 2 hours. When we got to the Anderson home, I was dead tired. I fell asleep curled up on Matt (don't kill me Belle) until dinner. Then I fell asleep again, same place (again I wave the white flag Belle) while he talked with his dad as Mark played Dr. Mario. Eventually the spell passed I was awake the rest of the night. Everyone watched War of the Worlds, and I have to say that it was awesome, but the number 1 alien movie is still Independence Day. So...I didn't want to go home and when the weather got bad this evening I didn't want Matt to leave, but I knew it'd be best that he did. My only question is this...can I wait until I'm 18 and can leave this place whenever I want? Can I wait until I'm 18 and not be home very often? Can I wait until Matt and I are no longer separated? I don't know and sometimes it's hard to be apart. It's hard to be here even. Somehow, I just gotta hang on until then. -Kat-