I've been in and out of an angry rage today. But apart from that slight handicap, I'm good. Things with Trevor are great. This is the first conflict-free relationship that I've been in. We dont fight. Sure, I get angry and pissy, but I'm working on that. I feel like I'm missing out on the whole highschool experience. I'm a nonconformist all the way, but that doesnt mean I shouldnt not do what I want to. Hope that made sense. Mom is suffocating me with rules lately and I dont know what I'm going to do. I know she was a wild child when she was young and I know she messed up. But those are things I know, it doesnt change how I feel. I sound young and stuipd and cliche. Maybe I am. I'm pretty smart though. I miss having friends. Sounds like a self-pity call but its not. I just dont feel like I can trust many people this year, and its not without good cause. I've got a few though, so I'm good. I just dont know what I'm gonna do next year. I started at Polo on Saturday. Its not bad. I work tomorrow and Tuesday 3-10. I have to babysit 8:30-2 tuesday too. Ugh. --Kayla