uuuuuuuuh....... happy new year? no, happy birthday! after all, it is the year's birthday. but hey, what's up with all these new year's resolutions and celebrations? i mean, come on, from 11:59 to 12:00 did you really feel any different? i sure didn't.... it's just another minute, another day. so what's up with all the celebration? the calendar changed.....ooh boy! let's throw a party! people are wierd........... yup..... and everybody's trusting in the heart like the heart don't lie. so....... my friends ask me, so, what are you gonna change, what are you gonna do new? well, my friends, it's not about what you do new, it's what you don't do old. what's funny though, is i think back and can't really remember anything about last year. i remember that i hung out with my friends, and that i went to camp, and cedar point, and that i was in marching band...... but anything further from yesterday and can barely remember a solid moment. i just know that i did things. i don't remember anything about them. so this year....... i'm going to make it worth remembering. there's gotta be soemthing to live for. i thought i found it, but apparently not. tell me, do you spend your life finding yourself? or do you always know who you are, you just have to choose to be the real you? because i think that if that's true, a lot more of us would have chosen to be ourselves, don't you think? do you think you can change anything? i don't. there's some things you just can't change. some things never will change. now ain't that unusual? ........who the hell did i think i was....... so love me when i'm here, right me when i'm wrong, hold me when i'm scared, and love me when i'm gone. that's all i have to say about that.