today was strange.... i just kind of feel... out of place... and it didn't feel like friday. part of the reason is that i'm not doing anything tonight.... which sucks. but it's not like it matters, because if we all actually did something, it would end up with me and jacob getting into one more drama deal... and i'm really getting sick of those. it's like the two of us together are a magnet for it. and i hate it. but hey, i'm not complaining. i know i've got it good compared to most people. but GEEZ you'd think we could actually have one weekend where we were actually just.... us... who am i kidding, we've never been us and we'll never be us. it's always gonna be me and him. never us. why is it that any time i dream something, any time i say something, it always ends up coming true somehow???? i don't claim to be psychic or anything, but jeez, it's freakin me out... but you know what, i'm about ready to forget about the whole thing. seriously, just totally quit. because it doesn't feel like it's going anywhere. it might have for awhile, but not anymore... now it's just.... enh. i dunno. i'm starting to wonder if it's just habit. but... oh, who gives a crap. everyone knows i can't let go. enough of my rambling. i'm out of here... to go deal with stupid meaningless pointless teen drama... later daze quote of the day: if you love someone... it shouldn't be because you think they're perfect. Nor should it be that you think they could someday become perfect for you. Love someone, simply because you do. If they have quirks... you can work on those. If you can't get past them... they shouldn't make a difference. Just love em for no good reason at all, and expect nothing more in return than a cold shoulder. Obviously you'd want a little more than that, but when you love someone, you have to expect the fights and heartaches too. true love waits... Sabe