because there's no point. no purpose. yeah, stuff without a purpose is fun. but when nothing has a purpose... then you know something's wrong. then the simple things with no purpose annoy you and the big things with no purpose are the ones you cling to, instead of the other way around. Melodies bring memories that linger in my heart... I'm starting to feel the consequence of my actions... I almost regret... well, I don't regret my actions. I know I did the right thing and if I had to go back, I'd do it all over again. But... is it possible to regret someone else's actions? Because if it's possible, I've most certainly achieved it. I just... I'm starting to feel the pressure. Things that used to matter don't, and things that didn't matter before now matter. And some of it's stayed the same. But my refuges are gone, and I'm being forced to lean on different pillars. The last one... the marble was so smooth, the colored waves so beautiful, and I knew each curve like the back of my hand. The new ones, they aren't so perfect... and not so comfortable... *sigh* I guess I've only got myself to blame... but... ugh. Two awesome things about today: I finally got to talk to Leah for the first time in two weeks and I just might be on the path to sanity again. And my cousins made me these awesome earrings out of guitar picks, they're the bomb! Two sucky things about today: Mom's been a royal pain in the butt, driving me further towards insanity. And I don't get to go on the youth camping trip this weekend. Grr. random quote of the day: Happiness is when what you say, what you think, and what you do are in perfect harmony. --Mahatma Ghandi Cora