well today wasnt that great of a day. it started off.. alright.. i went into SLO and had lunch with mah mom, sister, aunt and gma.. then went shopping.. i dont like shopping.. so it wasnt that great but oh well. and i had this conversation about my being so-called "goth" (hi! im not!) and punk (im not that either) with my gma and my mom.. i dont see why they think that.. i dont act goth. and being goth and punk has absolutely NOTHING to do with what you wear. and FYI my sister does NOT do drugs for cryin out loud! she doesnt even look like she does drugs. anywho.. anyways they dont agree with how i dress (like i care but anyway).. just because i dress a certain way, doesnt mean im gonna act a certain way. i want to get a job, so i can get away from all this stuff thats going on. i hate it. and i have no way of being alone in this house. no matter where i go, someone is there.. and theres only 4 people in this house. but.. it is a pretty small house (imo).. ah well.. hopefully as soon as im 18 i can get outta here.. oh yea. its such a great thing to hear from someone.. "i dont love you" well yea its obvious, i dont care. but, do you have to say it? why do people have to say something without thinking? i mean yea everybodys diffrent, everybody takes things diffrently. but, theres just so many people out there, who dont care about others' feelings. its like, who they are, what they are, or whatever, doesnt matter. sometimes i wish i was invisible. then people wont have to talk to me. nor see me. so, people cant make me angry, sad, happy or anything.. it could be just me and God.. but then again theres the thang of tell others about Him.. but it would still be cool to.. not be able to take things so personally when someone says something to you. ya know? but oh well. there are some things in life you just have to go through.. i dont even know what im saying.. why im saying it.. i guess.. just.. ranting.. venting.. whatever ~two word one choice no regrets~