Why do we do this to ourselves Why must we push ourselves further and further away As if we're helpless, hopeless, getting closer to death Lying to ourselves just to hide reality Worried, over something that was never really there Numb, every morning you wake up Numb, to anything good in life No one understands what we're going through We dont even understand ourselves We're never really, truely happy, are we It's been so long since you've felt happy You're not sure if you ever will again Hurting inside, emptiness, misery Tomorrow will be better... but tomorrow never comes It's not a choice Do you look in the mirror, only to find That the person you once knew, is missing? I'm just glad I have someone who I know loves me. Whom I can love back.. I don't know what I'd do without him.. Right now he's all I have to get me through the day. I hope he knows he's helped me in so many ways. I came across this site, with people (whoa! :P) talking (heh whoa again :P) about how they're depressed and what's happened to them in their lives. I read this one, where this girl wrote "I hate this. I hate being the person I am.. This isn't me... Where is the happy girl I used to be? I drove someone I love away.. This sickness drove them away. Now I have nothing".. While I feel the same way, I hope that never happens between us.. I don't want to drive him away because of something stupid I can't.. fix. or whatever.. ~two words one choice no regrets~