First off, what I told Shayna: Derrick's the most- I know I'ma sound lame and mushy when I say this but.. - Derrick's the best looking guy I've ever seen.. And I hope he believes me when I say that.. 'cause he really is.. I just wish he was ONLINE so I could TELL HIM Heyyy man, if I could, I'd just come to your doorstep without telling you I was going to. Even though I dont have your address = lol, but I'd ask around.. I know I could do it. I already know EXACTLY how to get to Las Cruces =p ... no seriously.. lol.. I wish I could show you, EXACTLY how much I heart you.. and how much I miss you.. And how much you mean to me.. And and.............. yea.. Now I feel sappy and whatever saying this.. gosh.. lol.. ..And when people keep telling me to leave you for not being around (curse them) I cant listen.. 'cause I only have one thing that lets me know we're still okay... Ya know what that is? ... Your essay ::heart:: Yep.. I read it *cough* occassionally... Nobody gets how I feel about you.. except maybe, Shayna.. she's the ONLY ONE that HASNT told me to break up with you.. And I wont, believe me I wont.. oh and remember how you said it ruins guys... umm.. egos if a girl starts dating girls after they broke up with their bf? Thats what I'd do to do you.. lol.. :P ... Yes, I'm joking.. In case anybody else reading this didnt get that for some ODD REASON. I just hope I didnt do anything to make you not talk? ... Like xmas eve.. I'm sorry about that baby.. I really am.. But you know I hate christmas with the biggest passion from hell.. Its just my nature... lol... And, I cant wait to have a ... future.. with you.. That sounds weird :S ... I dunno why.. Just does.. Anyway.. Living with you just sounds so awesomely... awesome... lol.. And I never cared about anybody as much as I do you.. After ::blank:: I said I didnt want anybody.. for atleast a million years.. then you came.. psh guys.. always ruining your plans :P lol **hugs** I heart you.. I love you so much that- .... I could say I love you.. lol... yea.... I'll prolly add more later......... yep...