another sunday.. and i didnt go to youth group at the youth ministers house. but i did go to my friends house and had a small class. i taught. it was about being.. humble. it was short. then we talked about meh friends girlfriend. lol. he hasnt seen her in about a year. and theyre still together. havent talked. oy. so we made him call her and of course it was 10 on a school night. and usually people cant get phone calls after 8.. lol.. anyway.. we talked about.. us being christians and having non chrisian bf/gfs.. course im the only one with out a person. aint that somethin. =) and were still tryin to figure out my otha friend.. he likes this girl and says they were never together but we think diffrently. and i wrote 3 poems saturday night at about 12.. just before i went to bed. so i might put em up later.. but i still feel the same way i have been for many many years. no one knows. i cant talk to anyone about it. oh! and last night we also talked about cutting. my friend was cutting himself "jokingly" but my sister and i made him stop.. then i confessed that i used to cut.. i kinda still do.. hey i get bored a lot what can i say.but i havent in about a month.. ish.. i still get those urges to cut again.. but hopefully i wont. my friend whom i still cant remember where he lives *grr* i told him before that i used to cut.. he doesnt know that i recently have again.. cause i havent talked to him in a while.. he told me he knows i wont.. he made me promise i wont.. and im sorry.. so sorry i let him down.. ~two words one choice no regrets~