Yes.. its come to using song quotes for my titles... Sooo.. I thought about what Derrick wrote, about everything that made him happy and stuff.. And thought about what made me happy.. I know I have a lot to be happy about.. But then again it might not seem like much.. 1. Would have to be Jeeessuuusss!!! Seriously though, I dont know where I would be without having something to believe in as strongly as I do God/Jesus 2. Tim and Gina. They're the best youth leaders I've ever had, and have shown me so much. I havent thanked them for it, but I hope they know they mean a lot 3. My parents who brought me to know what I know now. Even though for a few years there I HATED going to youth group. But I'm glad they made me. And for the fact that they love me, no matter what I do, or how much they piss me off or I them. I know they'd still love me and I them 4. My friends. Online and offline. Offline, I know Shayna will always be there for me. Same with her cousin Tambra, and then Zack and Bailey and Loretta. I've known Tinkerbell/Loretta for five years now, and even after she's seen how I've changed, and what I've done, she's still my friend.. Jay and Trav, I know they mean well, and they've recently been pissin me off, but I still know they'll be behind me through it all.. Even if they dont agree with it, or do something they dont like.. They're still like bros to me. And same with their sisters. They're the older sisters I never had. And they help me with everything I need help with. And Zack. He's exactly how a perfect guy should be. Not saying he's MY perfect guy, but you know what I mean. He's there to help when you need it, he'll just sit at home watching a movie with you, he'll teach you things. In my case, guitar. And he's there even if you just want to talk.. And he's not all "sexed up" about everything. He loves everybody, and it shows.. Even if he is emo.. =p 5. My music.. its my escape from reality and everything in between. I dont know what I'd do without it. I'm not saying music is my life. But its a pretty big part of it. Just listening to it I can get lost in it, and not have to worry about everything going on around me during the time I'm listening to it. Though there is more important things in life, music is a huuuge part of mine 6. Life. Seriously, without it.. I'd die.. =p I thank God every minute I'm alive, no matter how much it sucks, 'cause there's always going to be something better coming in the future 7. My bf. Even though there are times where we argue, I love every minute we're together.. Even if he does like rap.. and anime.. =p I love him no matter what.. And the future we'd have.. or will have.. er whatever.. I'm his brat and proud ;) 8. I have legs.. Yea dont take that weird, I mean I like the fact that I have them so I can walk. 'Cause if I could, I'd walk everywhere, and never have a car 9. Love.. Even though I say I hate it so much.. No I really do, but you cant help but love. Its not in your power to not do so. Now I'm not talking about worldly love, lust, childish love, teenage love, relationship love. I mean LOVE. From the heart. To love everybody (and hating them just the same), no matter who they are.. You can love someone and not like them at the same time.. Believe me.. I know I say I hate people, but I also love everybody.. And yes, there is a diffrence 10. Wisdom/Knowledge. Without it, we'd all be stupid. With knowledge you can write, designe, experiment, invent.. ....yea... 11. GNOMES. Whoever invented gnomes is AWESOME in my book.. Not that I have one. But I loooove gnomes. If I could, I'd have a yard FULL of them 12. Forests. Spending time alone in forests is nice to just sit somewhere and think. About nothing and everything.. And just got lost in how beautiful they are.. 13. Beaches. One in particular. I love Pismo Beach. I grew up there. I wish I could live there for the rest of my life.. Thats how much fun I had there.. 14. Rain. Like the song goes "I'm Only Happy When it Rains".. Be that as it may, thats not the ONLY time I'm happy. But, I just love the rain.. Standing, walking in it. And listening to it.. And the smell.. mmmm.. 15. Thunderstorms. They're so fun!! I love the lightning, rain (sometimes), and everything that comes with it. ..Minus the fires, and killing people when lightning hits them.. 16. Fire!! Its so pretty and.. warm.. and.. peaceful.. And helps you make a mmeeeaann smore 17. The fact that I can see beauty in everything.. And anybody.. I dont care who you are, or what you look like, you're beautiful in my eyes. No matter what anybody tells you. You're beautiful. And then theres billions of everything else thats beautiful too.. If you take away the disgusting things.. But you know thats not what I meant.. Hey, even death is a beautiful thing.. Dying brings you closer to God.. :) 18. My pets. My cat, Honey, and my fish Mishimi. My cat knows when something is wrong, and she comforts me when she knows I need it the most.. ^__^;; I guess its God's way with comunicating with me and holding me when I need it.. :) ..Even though she does run away a lot.. lol.. And then theres my fish. She's so cute... and fun. Its fun talking to her even though she dont talk back =p Yea, and I guess my dogs too.. They're too happy and jumpy for me, but when you need the big perk in you're day, they're there for you. And they bark and people and scare them. Its quite entertaining.. 19. SQUIRRELLS!!! They're sooo adorable. Its sad to see one on the side of the road **tear** and when my dad tries to run them over with his car.. grrrrrr. But he only does it 'cause he knows I'll get mad.. And any of you who ever does, has, or will try to kill a squirrel.. prepare to die.. =p 20. Darkness I dunno, everything seems so much more fun in the dark.. and yes.. I mean everything. Cemetaries are awesome, yes. But.. its just something about being in the dark, that I find my peace, and and content..ness... 21. Wind but, not *too* much wind. Just enough for a nice breeze.. Like the kind you see in movies where it blows the curtains a bit, kinda like an eerie sorta breeze.. 22. Then there's Warren. My ex youth minister. He moved to Kentucky, and he taught us a lot. And plus, he was fun. And took us to the park, and had lots for us to do for "youth outings".. Even though they werent exactly concidered "youth outings" but whatever.. He was fun.. 23. Youth group at Calvary Chapel. They were fun too. And had lots to learn there. Not just about God, I mean.. everything.. They had the best worship team er praise team.. And had Casey, Corey, Amanda, Jackie, Derek, Zack, Kayla.... Everybody thats talked to me a couple times.. But, Zack and Bailey were the only ones that stuck around.. lol. Anyway.. It was just a fun place to go to get away from everything at home and stuff 24. Art "Dark" art is awesome.. I dont like calling it "gothic" art.. 'cause it doesnt really seem gothic.. lol. But, any kind of art is cool in its own way. I love art galleries and stuff.. When someone will come with me anyway.. They're not *as* fun when you go alone.. 25. Homeless people hey they have more of a.. -whats that word.. gratefulness.. no..not respect.. well whatever, hopefully you know what I mean..- than most non-homeless people do.. They jus live off the streets and try to survive on what little they have. And, they're not so caught up in everything most other people are caught up in these days 26. Sleep. Even though I dont get much of it, from what I do get. Its nice :) Okay, thats all I can think of for now.. Thanks for reading!! lol... The reason I didnt add energy drinks, is 'cause I love them and everything, and yes they do make me happy, but they're not exactly IMPORTANT.. I mean, I can live without them, and I have.. :) Have a nice day! ♥ She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong But she still sleeps with the light on And she acts like it's all right on, as she smiles again And her mother lies there sick with cancer And her friends don't understand her She's a question without answers Who feels like falling apart. She knows, she's so much more than worthless She needs to find a purpose, She wonders what she did to deserve this She's calling out to you This is a call, this is a call out Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you And I'm losing all control now And my hazard signs are all out I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about And he tells everyone a story, Cause he thinks his life is boring And he fights so you won't ignore him, Cause that's his biggest fear And he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it And he loves but he's scared to use it So he hides behind the music Cause he likes it that way And he knows, he's so much more than worthless He needs to find the surface Cause he's starting to get nervous He's calling out to you This is a call, this is a call out Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you And I'm losing all control now And my hazard signs are all out I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about Have you ever felt this way before Cause I don't wanna hide here anymore Take me to a place where nothing's wrong And thanks for coming, shut the door And they say some one out there sees us, Well if you're real, then save me Jesus Cause I've been this way for far too long I wasn't meant to feel alone And I'm calling out to you This is a call, this is a call out Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you And I'm losing all control now And my hazard signs are all out I'm asking you to show me what this life is all about Show me what this life is all about Show me what this life is all about ~two words one choice no regrets~