well. tonight was pretty good. i went to youth group. and of course the youth minister taught about marriage/husband and wives.. even though were all in high school and it didnt have to do with us but in a way it did. cause, he said, the guys are supossed to treat other girls like their sisters. not like it you yell at yer sister and stuff.. like love them as you do yer sister.. til you put that ring on her finger... somethin somethin somethin.. i forget that part.. but that thang.. it.. kinda confuzzled meh. cause, if guys are supossed to treat girls like their sisters.. thats creepy. but, he meant that, you cant lust over them, cause obviously its a sin. and plus the thought behind that lust. and there werent that many peeps in class this time. which was weird.. usually theres like 20.. tonight there was less.. but of course one of my friends didnt come. she bailed. but friday theres gonna be this really cool concert (local band) at the bowling alley and its five bucks so i might go to that. hopefully. a guy in the youth group is gonna be playing there that night hes cool. he sings good too =) hes the singer in the youth band. and my friend got her friend grounded. haha. but oh my cow. i hate talking about marriage and dating and stuff. it gets so annoying. cause two weeks in a row we had a few hour conversation about dating with my parents and another family whom my family ish close to. but then today we talked about it. and then i heard were gonna talk about it again (with my family and the other family, and their cousins family).. talk about.. aggrivating. sheesh. and today.. i felt.. not all that great. like.. an "i dont care" attitude. i hate it. i wish there was some way i could change it.. it was like a all down sorta mood.. and just after the worship part. i got the hot feeling, like i did back in august, when i had to go to the doctor and found out it was a tumor (non cancerous). and its so cool that it could been my bro or sis (i say bro) though i never got to meet him.. and them doctors didnt show it to meh. *grrr!!!!* and now im wondering if they really took out the tumor (it was on my left ovary).. cause it STILL hurts. after all these months they said it should be ok, and no pain. but. it does. so i have to go back to the doctor on the 17th. ill let ya know how that turns out. i must say. i am hoping it another tumor. and if it is, they have to let me have it, or i wont let them take it out. its that simple =) but anyway.. after me feeling useless all day.. im gonna go.. do.. something.. probly go write.. or sleep.. ~two words one choice no regrets~