hello, folks. i miss my father...*cries again* its not like im mad at mariah but i am. okay so yesterday we were doing thsi day of caring thing for church where we went and picked out dishes for the shelter house with money from thrivent(for which i am very greatful, we all are) and joanna was gonna call her dad and tell him to pikher up at like 5 from church and mariahs like well i thought you and jenna were coming over and i was like...uh...*awkward silence*...i dont want to invite myself along anywhere but i felt really left out. i don thik she likes me though cus last week we weere talking about how we all get to bible study and stuff and how sometimes i haveto ride the bus alone and jenna was like im sur eyou could ride with us. and mariah was like theres not enough room. i cried fro like an hour. i like include her in stuff. maybe she just donesnt like me. and i know me and her werent GREAT friends or anything not even good friends. but still. and im not mad at jenna. just a little hurt. cus last week she had joanna and lauren and mariah over. annd since when SINCE fucking when does anyone even like lauren? last i checked. not any ofus but still i mean i feel like shit cus she didnt invite me or carlee and its the FAB five....Wondering why carlee isnt invited? she has to abysit with ano.