ugh today has been. horrible. pretty much. i just i dont know what im going to do. laney adn i got in a big fight. and i just. i feel like no one ahs any respect for my stuff,. she went through my backpack adn found some chocolate and put it in her purse and i asked her if she took it and lied. adn then i spazzed. i wonder if im meant to be with him. i dont see him. like. EVER. and i dont get to talk to him very often anymore. its hard i dont know how this is supposed to work. i really really want it to. i hate my van. it wouldnt be so bad if it werew a car, crap. give me a crappy car over that van anyday. my dad wont let me drive his car, he "needs it for work". the van's such an embarassment. its rather horrible. i detest driving it. i cant go to chicago. because i have a d in band. nad it sucks. becase i really wanted to go. adn i might end up going to cam,p, which could be cool. i kinda wanna go to willmar this weekend again. because i didnt really get to see anyone other than sam, carlee adn lex. i havent been there all summer. i make bad decisions wiht my friends. ive decided. i love them to death, its just i need to think my choices over. i get angry rather easily. and i dont reallyl know. i mean im gettting mad over dumb things. jons getting on my nerves excessively lately.