i dunno todays so Mixed. sarahs here which rocks. Majorly. but i think her being here reMinds Me that iM not going back to willMar. well, iM going back, but iM not gonna live there. and i duno it just hurts. i getta go back in 21 days. and i duno. i wonder if it'd be better if i didnt go to sonshine and on the Mission trip becuase iM just toying with My eMotions and thats not fair to Me or toM. and i duno...as strange as this sounds i feel like iM missing my stoMach which.cant really be possible becaus theres so Much of it. awhile ago My dad asked Me if when we Move, if they had to worry about Me. i didnt think so at first but now iM beginning to think otherwise. i wonder if it is better that i stay hoMe. froM possibly even sarahs wedding. which sounds coMpletely ludacris but hey, if it needs to be, so it shall. iM out.