In fact, dearest Stephaine, i do think you are a poseur. you dont know what you like and what you want...you make up stuff all the time... heres what a DEAR friend of mine wrote recently about our weekend together- "i have always wondered y the fab five is such good friends...this weekend answered my question...we all have our part in the five that helps us all get along...well usually..and when u are missing a puzzle piece it just doesnt work..and putting a piece into the puzzle that isnt the right one makes the whole thing messed up.. the reason the fab five came to be is because we all have at least two really close friends in the group. carlee-britty and jenna britty-carlee and joanna jenna- carlee, mariah, joanna joanna-britty and jenna mariah-jenna for sure i didnt like mariah cuz i felt that she was stealing jenna away from me. and because of that song they made up in 6th grade..lol jk mariah..and i have always seen joanna almost the same way..she is brittys best friend and she is closer to britt than i am.. i am a mean person and i know that..nobody has to remind me of that...i speak my mind and if u dont like it then fine..im not going to be someone im not so people will like me..im not going to hide the real me because i dont know how people will judge me..im not going to be in love with a band because other people are.. i dont care about having friends other than the fab five cus i have a family that loves me..ok im not saying i dont want friends im just going kinda insane at the moment. i was reading a certain diary today..after one of my dear friends told me about it. this person talked about sonshine and how we all had our beefs, im sure people were mad at me, but this person doesnt realize that the reason that me and britty always went our own way is cuz we couldnt handle anymore..i called steph cheap..and i wouldnt take it back..the girl talks about how she is getting $500 to go shopping, and getting dreads, and she spent $50 on shirts, and her xbox, and her big screen tv, and her tramp, but she cant buy her own food, then complains cuz britty took to big of a bite of her subway sandwich, we have a lot of money but at least we dont act like we do..I have three houses, five boats, a pontoon, a fourwheeler,snowmobile, my own car that i got for my 15 birthday, we go on a trips every year,i could go on but i think it is really stuck up to talk about it like that.. and by the way i never said u were cheap because u wouldnt buy the cds, why would u buy a bands cd if your friend has it.. we went to the cabin cus it was so hot..and me being the witch i am got into a fight with jenna and britty and the twins from Barcelona, Spain were making cat noises because we were yelling so loud..i was crabby because i had been on the run since sunday, i wanted to sleep, and then i had to listen to everyone else whine, i was going through a bad week in the month above everything else, and i saw someone i dont get along with everyday. The best day was when me and britty were all alone and we didnt go to all the BIG named bands..mainstage is crazy..i like to listen to all the bands that nobody else does..i guess im just not a follower...i like to explore on my own..and who better to do it with that britty.. Does this make any sense? and even though i only learned who most of these bands are this weekend i can still like them and act like i have known them for a long time. i dont get it i am way past my mean level today so i will quit" I am totally behind it... And so it is said.