its hard to really know who your friends are...ya know...really know... this my sound stupid, but...my fish is about to die..and ive never really liked the fish, but....we had about five of them in pennock and now, this is teh last one...this is symbolic i think. i mean, the end of our pennock lives are over. its hard to thikn that. he, like us, has survived four houses within five months...and now, there is no hope of us going back, God has just sent us a sign, that, no, this isnt a vacation, this is really where i live now. i feel, sick...grotesque even....not that i want to move back, sure ill miss people...but....this is what God wants. and this is what I'll do.