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by punksunstarz
yes, i know MOST of my friends. so what if i've had a crush on your boyfriend, add him to the list. i wear my heart on my sleeve, but try not to let it hurt. i miss that she knows everything about me, before ninth grade.i speak my mind, so mostly, you'll never know what i'm talking about. i wanna go skating with him, but i'm a little apprehensive about falling. i like to laugh a lot, about things that aren't necessarily funny. as for my apperance, i'm fat, alrite, get over it. i have. my manager makes me smile, in ways i'm not sure they should. i come from a big family, i'm supposed to be loud. i'm musically inclined, and i like it that way. sure, i'll be your friend. I like to spend time reading teenage romance novels while staring at the adorable book shelver at Centennial Library. My Tuesdays and Thursdays are spent with people whose Medulla Oblongodas are so much more retentive than mine, but they don't hold it against me, i don't think.I like that people can tell just when i need a meat and potato burrito. I like to upsell, so what if it makes people mad? Nicknames are my specialty, if you want one ask. i'm a master at teaching people to do donuts in cars. my coke bottle lensed, thick black rimmed glasses are perscription and my sideswipe bangs have inhibited my head since 1997, so stop calling me scene. Thermals and mucklucks are my favorite clothings, feel free to donate. i guess i'm a good shoulder to cry on, or so she says. don't break my heart, i don't know if i'll ever be able to forgive you. i play my little pony games on my sisters gameboy nano while at work. i'm irrational, but that doesn't stop me from being logical about wasting gas. i listen to little known music, most of it given to me by a girl.i like that i still wear bracelets from two years ago. Believe it or not, i do like to get dressed up. i'll admit it, when we broke up i had her drive me downtown, the bright lights just bring out the best in me.
I STILL GOT YER K.
"We all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets"
-the spill canvas



Britany Cae


musicandmisery@hotmail.com

a boy to call my own

I want a guy who i can talk to about anything, who laughs at my jokes. a boy who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets. who lets me use his sweatshirt for a pillow. who buys me 25 cent rings, and sticky hands. who says i love you & means it. who will kiss me in the rain, in the sunshine, and in the snow. who calls unexpectedly. who will have many inside jokes with me and remember each one. a boy who notices girls haircuts. who realizes that girls say things but dont always mean them. who shows up at my games, slipping in the door. who i can go swimming with on hot days. who can tell me his problems and let me help. who will listen to me talk -- about the new nail polish i got. who will bring me seashells from the beach. who will let me beat him up when i get angry. who writes love letters to me, but doesnt send them. who draws pictures and slips them gently into my locker slot. who saves his genuine, big smiles for me. a boy with deeps eyes, that can see through faces into depths. who wears baseball hats and lets me wear his too. who gives me his t-shirt to change into and not expect to get it back. who knows me favorite color, song, car, vegetable, perfume and the color of my toothbrush. a boy who will shake my dads hand and look my mother in the eye. who will call me by my full name-- first, middle and last. a boy who will kiss me and tell me im pretty. a boy who will let me cry to him. who will squeeze my hips just right. who suprises me and compliments my manicure and plays with my hair. who knows when i have a math test or when i fail one. a boy who smells like he just stepped out of the shower. who wears cologne that i can subtly smell when im leaning on his shoulder. who tells me i have a nice laugh and a smile that light up the room and simply be mine to hold. He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt. He'll stay home with me and watch Disney movies. And the only person he would ever watch it with would be me. He'll call me at 3 AM and ask me what I'm doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice. And he always whispers something sweet in my ear. He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band. And he won't get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends. When I cry he'll tell me I'm too beautiful to and he'll kiss every tear. He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me. All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them. He'll stay up with me all night when I'm sick. When we're walking together he'll stop and and put it behind my ear. He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect. We always end up laughing about silly fights. We won't get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it. Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me...every time he kisses me. He'll tell me he'd die without me. He'll prove to me that i can trust him..He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food or flowers when I'm having a bad day. He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy. When we go out for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose then I'll put some all over his face. And we just never stop laughing. He wouldn't be scared to cry in front of me-- and would hold me when I cry... He'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he's ever met. He would grab my waist and kiss my neck. And we'd always take pictures in photo booths. He'll let me go places with his mom. We would play tag and not care whose watching. We'd kiss in the rain. And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again. I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me, and then turn completely soft when I'm upset and apologize. I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars. Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house. When we kissed our hips would be pressed together. I want someone to be there no matter what ... always and forever.

I'll be his everything...

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