most of the dirty little secrets from the video I want to go blind so I dont have to see them together Im a virgin I waste office supplies because I hate my boss I havent spoken to my dad in 10 years, and it kills me Everything I told her Was a complete lie When I eat I feel like a failure I had gay sex at a church camp 3 times I pee in the sink I am a peaceful person who happens to be filled with rage She cheated. I make fun of FAT people but my mom is HUGE I wish I was the other twin I hate feeling alone Im only dating her to get her sister! Im afraid to take the next step I miss feeling close to God I hate people who remind me of myself I fear I have an undiagnosed mental illness 3 years ago I tried to kill myselfNow Im 18 and people say Im happy But I still want to die Im afraid that no one will love me as much as my dog Sometimes I think my fianc isnt the one Sometimes I fake empathy so people will like me Im afraid of naked women I leave poetry in library books I love you so much but cant tell you!!! I feel ugly because I am half white, half black I cheated on my SAT and got a scholarship I thought I was in love with him I take more than the suggested dose I only love 2 of my children Im in love with my best friend Im afraid to answer the phone People think Ive stopped lyingbut Ive just gotten better at it I know it really stinks, but I like to smell my own poop My family is rich but I shoplift everyday! I have more body hair than any women should I dont know what I want but I know I dont want this TEN FIRSTS First Best Friend: joanna green First Screen Name: fishbowlofclouds First Pet: that hamster..forgot its name First Piercing: ears First Crush: Mike Dunham First CD Bought: Aqua First Car: ugly green aerostar First Love: yet to happen First Stuffed Animal:the bear i got in l'hopital when i was born NINE LASTS Last Alchoholic Beverage: at the Whittet's Last Car Ride: Home from the holidazzle Last Movie Seen: erm...i don't know. Last Phone Call: Sarah EM Frank Last Song Played: The Music or the Misery-Fall Out Boy Last Bubble Bath: i don't know Last Time You Cried: right now...deep talks with dad... Last time You Laughed: um...in the van with Carmie Last Time You Fell:shopping with dad on Monday at Kohl's EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: nope. Have You Ever Been Arrested: for dancing. yes. Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: call it what you want Have You Ever Been On TV: yes Have You Ever Regreted a Kiss: can't say i have Have You Ever Lied: yes Have You Ever Teased: yes SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING: 1. PUSH bracelet 2. black plaid shirt 3. AFI shirt 4. zipup hoodie 5. belt 6. socks 7. Chucks SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY 1. slept 2. yawned 3. listened to tunes 4. played tunes 5. went to the Holidazzle parade and Cinderella thing on the 8th floor at Marshall Field's 6. got dressed FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER 1. God 2. friends 3. family 4. dancing 5. music FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO 1. sarah 2. alana 3. carlee 4. carmen THREE CHOICES 1. Hot or Cold:depends 2. Black or White: black 3. Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. sleep 2. sleep some more. ONE THING YOU REGRET 1. not sleeping