oh yah. and last night, i had three of my photos in a photo show. it was really fun, but there was one person that promised they'd show up that i decided if they did, my night would have been made. well....they didn't show. he had an ok reason i guess. but...it just really would have meant alot to me had he come. ah well. i will someday learn that he's not ever gonna be all i want him to be to me again. i had him once. i wish i could completely let go.