its one day til my birthday. i got a happy birthday email from schmack. mark drew me a beautiful flower. i think i'm in love with mark. i don't know what to do about anything. the only thing i can do is to live life, and enjoy it... but some of this is such a bitch. i love emotion i love love but... i'm in such a state of i don't know. i've been thinking alot. thats probably the trouble.