this has been an interesting weekend. friday night, i went to the city museum with some friends, and that was fun, then i went to go see the movie Amphetamine, which i was in, as were at lot of my friends, at the Tivoli. that was really fun because the entire theater was PACKED, and i knew almost everyone there. it was a fun reunion thing. My ex-boyfriend Schmack was there(who is currently the subject of a cover story in the RFT!!), which threw me into a tizzy as usual. i melt in his presence, but i'm getting better, the tingle doesn't last as long as it used to. but anyway, so lately, i've been craving some kind of physical affection. and usually when this happens, a little fun, harmless making out will solve it. so i ended up having some kissy fun with a boy i met through my friend becky, but this time, that didn't really quell whatever i had been feeling. partially due to the fact that i couldn't stop thinking about schmack. so saturday night, i ended up stopping over at my friend laz's bday party after work. that was fun, and my friend mark was there. i have had a big crush on mark for awhile, but i decided that its best for it not to go anywhere. we ended up cuddling on the couch. and wow...it was so nice. just being held, with no intentions further than that. every once and awhile, even though i usually try to quell the emotional side of me, because it can get too intense, some emotional affection is damn nice. today, i got suddenly inspired to write again. so i started working on a scene. i'm actually quite pleased with it, and now i'm trying to work out a plot to house it. its got a little basis in reality, but i switched the genders of the characters involved and also made it a bit more volitile and dramatic than it was. the tone is truly set by the line "I'm still in love with you, you stupid bitch". heh. so tonight, i went to my theater's current production. its an improv show thats structured around Dennis doing I-Ching readings. it was........interesting. its depressing because i've been watching all these talented people stop progressing and do sloppy, amateurish attempts at what they should be shining at. saw schmack again there. i love how honest he is. he and i were talking about how wretched the production was. even though he still makes me sigh a bit, it is good to see him. so i ended up at the coffeehouse afterwards, and sat around and bullshitted with a few people for awhile. but they started talking about game, so i got rapidly disenchanted with sitting by them. However, when i walked in, there was this guy sitting in there, in a cowboy hat and poncho. so i'm just like "ooh, its a cowboy" and he tipped his hat to me. it was neat, so i ended up talking to him, and i must say, he intrigued me. he was a little bit flirty, but not overly zealous, which can be annoying, but he told me i was the prettiest girl in the place (blush). so while we are sitting there talking, he's weaving a hat band, and just casually asking questions to prompt conversation. at one point he asks me what catches my eye. so as a silly response, i say "shiny objects". he said i was like a bluejay. so we talk for awhile, and as i'm leaving he says "bye bluejay". it caught me for some reason. i think its because its the kind of dialogue i would write. i thought it was neat. i hope i run into him again, i wasn't able to profile him right away, and i really like that. wow....its so beautiful and foggy out tonight. like a humphrey bogart movie.