fuck. fuck. fuck. ok, i haven't updated in a while, because i wrote a really long entry filling in all that has happened about a week ago, and it got deleted somehow. so i got pissed and didn't try to rewrite it. but anyway. i finally cleared up the whole mackie fiasco.... and got myself into another situation. i was at a party. don was there. we were both very very intoxicated. i don't really resist situations when intoxicated. made out with don. ordinarily this would be no big deal at all. however. the funny thing about don, is that one of my best friends is in love with him. there are quite a few more details that make this situation even more complicated, and things that could justify either side. but right now, i hate myself. alot.