today started pretty late, because i was a lump and stayed in bed way too long. but then i went to work, and that was not too bad. it looked busy at first because there was a book release party going on, but they were all the bar crowd, so i didn't have to deal with them. then andy showed up with some friends...and that made me really happy, because i really do adore him. at one point, he made a sarcastic quip to jim, and then tried to take a drink of his tea, and accidently got the spoon instead of the straw. so i drew on a napkin a picture of a straw and a picture of a spoon and labeled them, then dropped it on his table. it was amusing. so i continued to flirt with him a bit, because i have the maddest crush EVER on him, and it was great, but then i found out from jim that he just got a girlfriend. DAMMIT. i was almost to the point where i had gotten the guts up to ask him to dinner or something. then elizabeth came in on her date with this guy jeremy we met last night. that was adorable. after i left work, i went down to the coffeehouse, of course, and sat around. i ended up running into jeremy, after he dropped eliz off, and talked to him awhile, then just sat by myself and got all pensive-like. i was trying to figure out what i wanted to do about tj....because i'm still not sure i wanna pursue that. it just seems that my guards are staying up and he doesn't seem to notice or want to see through them, which is not what i want. so mark comes over to talk to me...and starts out by saying "you're cute." wha?? he never compliments me like that. he asks me what i was thinkin about, so i reply "boys". and then he asks if he was in it. not this time, i say. and then he asks, "oh, are you not interested in me anymore?" but i protest....but i am. then he says, "we should do something about that. gimme a call sometime". oy. i'm halfway really excited, because i've had a crush on him for a long time, but... i just decided the other day that i wouldn't go for him, because of several reasons. but.... bleh. i dunno. i hope things will work out.