tonight was all crazy hectic at work. so, i had my hand bandaged up from when it got cut up yesterday, so my hand was kinda clumsy. this caused me to slice through my index finger almost to the bone with a cerated bread knife. so i had a minimally functioning left hand during a busy night at work. NOT fun. and concentrating when your hand is throbbing? not so easy. after wards i went to the coffeehouse and just cranked up the tunes, cuz no one was there. no one meaning, mark wasn't there. every time someone came to the door, i jumped as if it was him. me = loser. ah well. and now eliz has decided that the solution is for her to cut herself off from mark, effectively no longer hanging at the coffeehouse. its a shame that its what she feels will solve things. its also a shame that i feel so incredably relieved. i hate being jealous and possessive, but i really am here. its so silly and petty. ah well, its the nature of humans i guess. at least i finally have somewhere to go for new years eve. i was really thinking about just going into work, and not going anywhere. but i'll be going to Shawn and Rachel's shindig, there should be plenty of friends there. i wonder if schmack would be there. last new years eve was so interesting. eh. we shall see. i really want to go shopping tomorrow to get a banging new years eve outfit.