im goin 2 NH on Sat :/ Id rather not really go but i guess im gonna have a good time. im the type who gets home sick and everything. everyone thinnks i dont wanna leave cuz im gonna miss dev. this is tru, BUT i also dont wanna leave my family. my dad has been out of the hospital for about a month now, and i just wanna be there for everything. its like having a new kid. you wanna be there for their first EVERYTHING. i wanna see him be able to get up on his own, not need the huge kamode thing he has to use for the bathroom, be able to eay WHATEVER he wants. plus, my dad has brain damage and so he yells alot, and so i dont want him to do sumthing stupid or say sumthin stupid, and make my mom go nuts. my mom was also supposed 2 be with me the first week but since we have the accident, her stupid work wont let her take any mroe days off. screw them! but there are things i wish i could take with me or jus not leave. yea im gonna miss dev, he does mean alot to me and id rather be a bum and stay home, but i think leaving will be like a test to see how strong our love really is. yea im young, so what. i can be in love. everyone will have a chance to be in love, and mine is right now. so im taking my chance and going with it. after i come back from NH, im goin back to work, or like volenteer work, for 2 weeks. then... i got to FL for 2 weeks. arent you supposed 2 have fun in summer? then why does mine seem to not feel so fun? i just feel like im gonna miss soo much while im gone and home. this, i will make sure, will not happen next year. next year, im not goin away THIS much. and i if i do, im taking my friends with me. the one who doesnt wanna leave, rach*