just got home from the compeotion.. was in a bad mood cuz im so sick and tired of going against crap teams or no teams at all. why the hell cant we go to a REAL competition where we have some kind of REAL competition!!?!?!? rar. and then the people we go against have the nerve to go and like make fun of our hair which is the gayest thing ever cuz you fing sucked with everything you did so you have NO right to talk. ahhhh im sooooo mad!!!! then i came home and just got even more mad. i didnt need to hear that. i really didnt wanna know. i know way to much already. you going out with her is breaking my heart. but oh well, i guess i was the one who got hurt this time. but i set myself up for it so w.e. i told you to, despite my feelings, cuz i didnt wanna see you depressed any more. ill suffer with it. ive been suffering for the past 3 months of my life. i may sound like a sucidel bitch, but i guess i am. im so fed up with my feelings and everything else. sorry but i dont know if i want you any more. hearing everything and knowing what goes on just makes it sooo much worse. uhhhhh life is gay. i have this gay SS homework to do and i really dont wanna do it. and then we have this dumb mask due on thursday. hmmm soo sick of school and life and everything. i need to go shopping. lol. mesha and i STILL didnt get to go. rar. but oh well. yesterday we had the suprise party for meg. she came in and was like not even suprised but then she started warming up. lol. tito, elvis, jami,gerald, steph, mesha and i and then meg, were there. what a time. we had a cake fight.. kinda. cake was all up in everyones faces. fun fun. yea well im gonna go and finish my dinner and then maybe some music to calm me down. -- rach