right now.. life couldnt get any worse.. well maybe it can but this is an ultimate. im no longer with dev cu of the mos gay reason on the face of the earth that he cant even explain himself, my friends even are in bad moods. my parents fight bout my dad having brain damage and he cant control himself. it hurts so much. i swear dev is using me cuz thanks to a reliable friend, i heard he was on the floor with another grl on top of him. hm... dont use me and ask me to come over later in the week and then go and fing "joke around" with other grls. you kno or should kno how i feel about that. i hate it. its like you come and have a great time and use the f outta me and cant even have enough respect to respect me! dont tell me about respect. cuz im giving it and not reciving it. i feel like shit and you could careless. you wanna be friends so act like one. dont be an idiot and do this to me. you kno how i feel about you. id do anything for you and im starting to believe i should jus move on. and not even have you as a friend. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!! RARRRRRRR!!!! i hate this. everything is falling apart. why cant i jus have a normal life. not one where everything falls apart. i cant say what i think of you cuz its not true. everytime i look at you i think of the good times we had. and not the "good" times we have now. ready to flip.. rach