ok here are some of the things that are getting to me: 1. friends 2. guys 3. family 4. school 5. my contacts 6. life 7. my clothes 8. the fact my mom had to come and ask me for a $1.25 at dinner tonight cuz she didnt have enough to pay for the coaches gift and i didnt have any money to give her. 9. my dad freaking out about monday 10. how everyone else is in love and im not 11. how everypne else seems to have no drama in their lives, but me 12. how some people have to be more immature then anyone ive ever met 13. how mesha and becca are the only two that have always, and i mean always been there for me 14. how HE cant even talk to me any more and has to IM me while doing something stupid and make a fool of himself and piss me off 15. how i sat at dinner tonight with no one to talk to 16. how i suck at sb 17. how only MY family shows up late for everything 18. how I am blamed for everything bad that happens around my house 19. how im the one who has to do everything around the house 20. how my sister can hang out with her friends and talk on the phone and know full well she has a project due the next day, but i cant even talk on the phone for an hour when i have NOTHING to do. im just so arg all the time. i had like ONE good day out of this whole week. idk. i lost one of my good friends today. he said i changed and i mean i havent talked to him for about 2 maybe 3 months so i guess i could have. i mean who doesnt change ya know? and he said there is no way i can change back. hmmm.. hes acting weird and its worrying me. idk if hes depressed or what but i worry. ok.. i have an awesome friend. his name is tito. hes just the coolest kid youll ever meet. hes like a brother to me. love him x33 ( dont get mad at me meg. hes all yours ) mesha, is awesome. i love her to death. i can tell her anything and everything. we have been through sooooo much and had so many great times. bffffffffl :) becca.. ive known you forever and we have been through alot. youre always and i mean always there for me. your not only my cousin, but my best friend. thanks for keeping me in check with the real world when i have gone a little crazy x33 well.. idk who else to put in here. ask if you want i guess. kinda tired. talk to yall later love yas x33