yea well today i cried. my dad and mom and i all got in a fight. kinda my mom and i against my dad. he told me to come home and go on and find out stuff for my printer and as he was coming home, i was going on the computer and he totally flipped that i hadnt looked for the stuff, so we got into this huge fight and he was calling us names.. nothing new. and i went to my room and cried and so did my mom. and then my dad calls me down like nothing happened and we installed the printer and stuff. so weird. i hate when we fight though. my dad almost hit my mom. he was trying to reach her from his chair and almost fell over. i wish this whole accident never happened. i wish i didnt ruin my family. i wish we were still the way we were with money. even if it wasnt that great, it was better before. oh well. i guess i cant change the fact that these stupid people cant see how messed up my family is and they wont give us money to help us out. thats not my fault. its fucking Cheryl Fung's fault. i fucking hate her. if i had the chance to shoot her, i would. even if i went to hell, knowing she was dead, would make me happy. she ruined my family. we werent the greatest before, but now its 10x worse. you prob dont care about my family problems, but i need to write them some where and i just happen to be at the computer. another thing thats pissing me off, is that everyone else seems to have someone to love.. or atleast adore and i dont. i cant find the person who is going to make me smile. the one who is going to be there for me even when im a bitch. i just cant find him. and to the kid who keeps asking me to hang out, its not happening. my parents wont let me. i swear to you. they wont let me ever. so stop trying to act nice, and try and put moves on me cuz its all fake to me. im never going to like you so just give up now. and the fact that you hate one of my good friends, REALLY ticks me off. im sorry you feel that way, but i dont wanna hear about it. your just jealous that at one point he had me. and you never will. sorry to burst your bubble, but you and i are just not going to happen. sorry.. thanks for the huggs guys! it makes me smile :)