ok so once again nick and i have broken up. (this happened yesterday) idk whats wrong with me. he keeps telling me its not my fault but i need a real reason to why we broke up so i just blame it on myself. i hardly got any sleep last night. but once i finally was alseep, my mom came in at like 5:45 and i have basically been up since then. on and off crying and sleeping. idk what to do with myself. its not like he was my whole life, but it was something, someone rather, to look forward to every morning. now its just going to be blah for the rest of my life. doubt im gonna find anyone else. im too screwed up for anyone to actually love me. uhhh. im beating myself up of this for no reason. i just want it to be tomorrow. so i can go to beccas and forget all about him for two days atleast. but ya know what the funny thing was? i told steph and some others that i was counting the days till we broke up. i even told steph that i bet you hes gonna break up with me today. and sure enough, he does. idk. i need help. i need to not be so hard on myself and just look at it as his loss. "You'll never ever find a girl Who loves you more than me" -- so true =/ ♥