i guess im not worthy of you. i feel like im talking to God but you seriously do not care one bit. if you do, im wrong.. and if you do.. SHOW IT! thats why im so mad at you all of the time. you have no respect for my feelings. yea, what if i liked another kid? you wouldnt care. im out of your life right now. you shut me out of everything and tell me you want to be my friend. and you said to me you wanna hang out soon.. BULL SHIT!! you know fully well you have bball every fing day of you life and on the weekends too. so dont say that unless you mean it. im starting to not care what you think of me any more. its like you prance around and talk to everyother girl, except me. did you forget our 10 months we spent together..? did a whole ten months of what seemed to me like happiness just happen to get erased from your memory? i cant stand the fact you sit there and know my feelings and flirt purposly with other girls. why cant i just hate you? why dont you like those people we were talking about last night? why cant you just like someone..get married, have a wonderful life together with someone else cuz you dont think we will ever be together again. just go do it so i can hate you forever. if you have some kind of feeling for me, even as a slight friend, show me! i want the fing hug thats been asked for way to many times. and how can you forget? are you thinking about other girls? good.. think about them. cuz i only think about you. i pray everyday for you to get a clue and realize how much you really meant/ mean to me. why cant you just realize how much your hurting me everyday. i feel like im wearing away from everyones lives. ecpecially yours. i dont know about you any more. i love you but i cant take you and your actions sometimes. just show your feelings and dont worry about your guys friends and the other girls. this is between you and me and it has to be settled. so lets do it. >:O Spanky.. : (