it happened with devin, and now nick. my parents, well mom, doesnt like me talking to boys. you know how many guy friends i have? more then girls.. thats for sure. just cuz nick happened to be more special then everyone else, doesnt mean you have to go all fing physco. dont you trust me? its like i cant even say hi to him.. or anyone for that matter. and you dont care about the fact that i see him in the halls, for like 30 seconds and thats it. after school, we have softball and then he has baseball right after my pratice. so i dont get to walk home with him any more. i NEVER see him. we hung out once. thats it. and you just dont make it any better. and when dev broke up to me.. all you had to say to me was that there are better people and to move on. wtf is that about. no.. lets talk it out or im sorry what went wrong. just a simple let him go and move on. sorry.. it took me over like 2 months to get over that kid. how about this time.. i really dont plan on leaving him. nick and i are doing amazing. and i love it when im with him. its the most perfect place to be. in his arms. you met dad at 16, so its kinda the same. just because i have a boyfriend doesnt make my priorities different. im still trying as hard as possible in school, i want to go to college**for the asshole who needs to annoy the f outta me.. basically everything you didnt do. i dont hate her i just cant take this. its happened so many times. tonight we were on the phone like half hour maybe 45 min. she totally flipped. so now nick is pissed too. i dont blame him. im appologizing for my parent. kinda sad. i mean she could atleast let me talk till whenever. i know when i have to stop, so just let me talk. its not kiling brain cells. w.e. its so stupid. i hate being the girl sometimes. its like everything about being a girl is over protective. yea so im like crying but whats new. i cry at everything. to tell you the truth, i love going to school. not just to see nick, but to see all of my friends and it gives me something to do during the day... something to get out of this house rather. im calming down but still. im like arg. and i wanna snap but all i can do it sit here and type. keeps be busy. well idk what else to say. im angry about this situation and why does this all have to happen. well im gonna go and rest. who knows what else. leave me comments. only if they are good.. not like i hate you and your gay. kinda dont need that right now. i love you so much nick. idk what id do with out you. youve put up with my family and me and its just amazing how you do. i hope things get better. i love you mesha.. i love you girl. bfffffffffffffffffffl. moms gonna be alright. shes in my prayers. love you.