hey everyone, i feel so confused! im really happy rite now but im so pissed and sad and mad!!! ill tell ya bout the happy stuff first, i was on msn talking n my really good guy frend came on i call him "bob" newayz i was talking to him n i was pissed before n i told him y n he just knows how to cheer me up n make me laugh i luv talking to him the thing that sucks the most is he lives in maple grove n not in willmar so i dont actually get to hang out wit him n the thing that sucks the most is i like him, alot n i really wish i didnt well i do but i dont cuz hes got a gf n he lives in maple grove n other reasons but i like him cuz hes such a great guy! n yea it just totally sucks tho!! newayz the reason im soo pissed off is now after my mom went to another doctors appoinment n shes now at a big risk of getting a heart attack n it just totally sucks cuz shes gettin sicker and sicker n it really scares me cuz ok heres the thing my mom gets sick every year but she gets better but this year she isnt getting better n im really scared cuz i cant lose her not now not ever n im just so scared im gonna lose her n i cant handle that it would just be too much, n its hard to be positive ya know fer her sake when thers just a giant possibilty that she could be gone n i just ugh i dont know nemore!!! it makes me so mad! i gotta go luv ya america! ~Neen~