hey every1 the reason for my title is becuase i guess mason decided he just wants to be on his own for a bit, like date girls n just do his own thing n he told me yesterday before xmas but i told him thatd itd be fine bcuz besides me liking him hes my best friend, n i gotta support him even if i dont agree with it. n it just sucks cuz i dont like ne1 else n i cant just go find some guy ya know? its just idk like this is how i kinda feel :: "if its love, then you would do nething to make him happy, even if it didnt include you.." but im not gonna give up on him either i mean i really really like this guy n im not gonna give up on him that easy i just wish i could actually be with him, i mean thats one of the reasons he wants to go on his own, is cuz the girls that he lives by can be with him n do normal bf/gf stuff and with me he cant, one of the things he said is he doesnt wanna be stuck with a girl he cant have, and thats me n idk i just i try not to think about it like today! it was so working laughing with every1 n handing presents out it really took my mind off of it but when i got home it was like oh yea, thats right, wer not like that nemore n you might not really understand this n its fine i just really needed to tell SOMEONE so yea. if u wanna know more about it just ask me n ill try to explain more. luv ya all ~NeeN~