heyhey okay well i was talking to sophie and i said i was confused so she asked me what about! and so here it goes!!!! and u all are probs gonna be annoyed by this entry lol okay well im confused about mason cuz ever sence we broke up wer like up n down like one day hes just like totally stressed out and annoyed with me so then he doesnt talk to me and then I get mad and then start bitching him out and yada yada DRAMA! lol and then the next day i go to talk to him and everything isnt crazy wer like sorry bout yesterday lala and we act like best friends again and its just grr!!! idk what to do nemore and like i yea i just dont know what to do its very confusing and frustrating so yea! and every1 including him keeps telling me wer gonna be together one i day i know it and i wanna believe it i really do but im afraid if i fully beleive it ill just get hurt super bad (and i know alot of u just read that and said how gay!) lol and i dont give a shit! this is my diary i can write what i want! so if u dont like it idc! u can tell me but idc! my diary.my words.my emotions.! lol so there lol ummmmmmmmm yea i luv mason to death i really really do but i know at the same time he just aint ready for a girl like me and its hard to kinda hold back from him n stuff sence me n him are like so close and wer really good friends besides liking each other so its like!:S yea...stressed lol so im gonna go! lol luv yas! ~NeeN~