why couldnt you be normal? why couldnt u of just accepted me for me. im suppose to forgive u and to start to love u like a father again but u hurt me so much. i wish u could just be a dad not just to my sisters and brother but to me too. im ur daughter too. love me, make me feel important too. you dont know it. but i cry at night, wishing on stars hoping one day u just might care about me. notice that im there that i have talents too. i didnt ask u to be special or nething i just asked u to care and to love me. i guess that was too much to ask for. u just want ur beer. son of a bitch. uv become the person i despise. this isnt how my life was suppose to go.....nothing good happens to me. i was gonna make this private but i dont feel like it today read it however u want. i dont care. i just wanna express how i feel. n what i write here stays here. thank you.