the hardest thing to do is to watch ur friend sit in front of u n tell u they have problems they got pain deeper than the naked eye can see they hurt so much inside that they just wanna end it. and for them to sit in front of me n tell me they dont want me to help they dont wanna talk about it cuz it makes things worse. is like a bullet to the heart. most people mistake it as me being annoying, but the reason i constantly ask n am always trying to figure out whats wrong is cuz if u wer to do something totally regretful like ending it i couldnt live with myself knowing that i could of done something i could of stopped it, but i chose not to cuz my friends thot i was being annoying n that i should just buzz off, well now ya know why i dont stop. friends dont let friends do stupid stuff. dont say that ur friends dont care n theyd be happier without u cuz its not true. why else would they be ur friends then? friends are ment to be a part of ur life ther suppose to make things better when no1 else can ther suppose to be able to just sit n listen to u talk, laugh, cry, whatever u need to do n they should be able to listen n not have to speak. a friend should always have a open door when u just need to walk somewhere else for awhile. a friend shouldnt just sit back n let u be sad n let u be horrible n wanna hurt urself. a friend should be there. always. so the next time u think im being annoying, know that im just being trying to save a life. if i cant make my life better why not make others better for their own sake and mine. i dont wanna have to see my friends lifeless body in a casket at the age of 15 or 16 when i could end up watching them in a casket all wrinkley n at the age of 93- as funny as it sounds lol its true i wanna see u guys live life to the fullest never regret a moment cuz it makes u who u are today. i love you all, n u all make me who i am today n i wouldnt trade it for nething in the world. ~NeeN~