I feel so mean, I haven't seen my boyfriend at all today, he gets off early from work, comes to my church to try to find me, then I have to say no because I have to write and do my homework. School definitely sucks ARSE!!! The worst par twas my mom was right there going what should I do What should I do. I have no clue because I am still figuring out what I am going to do. Can you give me a minute to think. NOw that made me mad and even more stressed out and so now I can't even freaking think about what I am supposed to do, THANKS MOM. I feel like such a jerk and I wish my mom would just shut her trap can't she take I DON'T KNOW for a damn answer. Sorry I have some pent up anger and if I don't get it out I will not be able to do nething at all tonight. I have to get above a freaking B on a precalc test tomorrow so that I can atleast pass. I am so fricking stressed out right now because I mad and sad and confused and I hate it. I cannot handle all this shit right now. I was fine until my mom kept asking me all these stupid questions. The worst thing is she said I think you made a good decision WELL DUH!!!!!!!! I don't need somebody telling me that. Especially my mom. Especially when now I regret that desicion and wish I would have gone--ya I would have been tired but I could at least get a little destressed. I don't know if I will even be able to do the work now! I absolutely hate this and for some apparent reason it always happens and it 's always when I need the grade. Usually it's my dad. But he has been gone and so have I and I don't see him that much ne more neways--even though he lives with me. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I am going to have a major meltdown. okay I need to study if I can