I am going off to college tomorrow!! My dad stuffed the car full--there is no more space for anything but me and my family!! I can't wait!! I had a huge long talk with this guy--it was nice--just to be able to talk on the phone with a guy--I know it's stupid but I miss it!! I remember when I would cry myself to sleep asking for a guy that was perfect for me--then I realised that It would happen in it's own time--which sucks!! But anyways--I remember just wanting a guy--but I found out later that having a guy isn't what it's all cracked up to be--they suck--well most of them!! But anyways I got over the praying for a guy and now I actually am looking--what I really wanted was a friend and encouragement!! I now don't care whether I have a guy-just as long as I have a guy friend I will be good!! I just need a good big hug every once in a while!