Spring break here I am!!! I am so frustrated with life right now. I am scared to graduate, I am scared to grow up. These next few years are going to be the hardest and most change i have been through. I think I will have panic attacks. Boys: I hate them! I try to not be a man-eater, and then I get eaten by man, not the good kind either. So now I'm back to being a man-eater. It's so stupid I would rather hurt someone than be hurt. I am sick of continually being hurt, I am sick of hurting people too though. I want a relationship, I want someone to love, I want someone I can be real with. I guess I am just frustrated with all my aspects of life because I never succeed at anything, ever I'm not a failure but I am scared to success.