So the stupid boy turns out okay. I know I like him. There's no question about that. I was going home and told him, turns out he needed a ride, so I was like sure. My mom was the one who ended up picking us up. He is a guy you can bring home to mom. Damn I want him soo bad. Yet I am so hesitant. I think I know I like him and it scares me. It scares me to know that I might have to trust him, it scares me to be rejected, it scares me to be open. Yet i already am open but not with some things and it scares me. Love scares me. I want it but I push it away. I want it soo bad. AHHH What is up with me.