Why do I torture myself. If it was going to happen between me and the boy it would have happened. Then the little voice in my head say no he's been busy working 40+ hours. I am writing to write not for advice..no offense but I don't really want it. Let me live my own life and make my own mistakes. Maybe I am making the 40+ hours an excuse for him so that I will still like him. To be fair I don't even know him that well. Ugh I am getting that tingly heart break feeling...I all of a sudden feel alone. I feel like I won't be good enough for anyone. Why do I do this to myself.