Listening to: silence
Feeling: crappy
Your in for a long one:
If you read all the horrible details.
So ya I had my open house today. Man I didn't know what to do. I didn't know who I should talk to or what about. IT was so stressful.
And then HE came along and brought HER. He being the Ex, her being the new "girlfriend"
Why does he have to lie to me--to my face. Ahh!!!!!!!
He dumped me for that thing?? I think this is just jealousy maybe not but I don't think he knows what he's getting himself into. Anyways when I saw her I was gave her a polite smile and nod and ignored her--what was I supposed to do? I don't know.
I mean I felt bad about making her feel awkward but she--she --He dumped me for her. He's moving because of her-he's changed because of her, I've lost my mind because of her.
I cared too much, loved too much, gave him all of my time all of my heart and he throws it to the ground and stomps on it. It's like putting a knife in my heart and twisting it. I still love the guy but hwne I think of him I want to vomit black stuff. I want the best for him but I want him to be miserable. I'm soo torn and I hate it.
i decided...a few more scars to hide...
oops.
Blessings
been told too many times it's wrong
been told too many times there's another way
been told too many times i shouldn't do it
been told too many times that it's not acceptable
been told too many times that people are afraid for my life...
told myself too many times i'm screwing up.
Blessings
p.s. nice background