Why is my life so complicated. I hate it. He's living out of his car like a freaking bum. He is going to be gone in two weeks for four weeks and I can't do one thing about it. Then he may leave for one year. Why do I feel like he's leaving me. I am so mad at him leaving me here all alone and I can't do anything about it. Then I am mad at myself because it's not his choice to leave he has to go. I don't know what to do or how to feel. Lucky me.