I want him. The only problem is I don't know how to get him. He is quiet and shy and probably won't make the first move...:/! This may be the reason why I want him so much cause I feel like he is unattainable giving myself a challenge. He is so adorable! AH! I mean it's so easy I just need to call him and yet I am so nervous about it. I feel like I won't talk right. The only times I have really seen him I have been drunk. I mean yeah we have sent messages back and forth but thats been through the safety of my computer and I could actually think of what I wanted to say and type it out. FIVE MORE DAYS!!! Five more days and it will be 2 months! WOW I think I am going to stay this way until I get into a relationship or atleast something steady. I feel like i am writing a lot but there is a lot to be said I guess and alot I am thinking about. It's amazing how when you have time to sit and think and also since it's around the holidays it gives me a ton to think about and a ton of people I miss. Well I miss being wanted and wanting someone else.