Listening to: Silence
Feeling: worthless
It's Thursday. I'm tired and can't wait for school to be over. I have a final on Monday and two on Tuesday and then I'm done. Yipee!
I cried today because of TV. One half of my favorite soap-super-couple was killed off. I used to watch GH with my mom. We were having some major problems for a while and it was the thing that brought us together. Luke and Laura were her reason for watching the show. Now Laura is dead just like her.
Everyone is going to die at some point. It's sombering to think about. It could happen right now, or next week, or 50 years from now but it's going to happen. And no matter how hard you try to hold on to a person after their gone they start to slip away. You can't remember how they smelled or the sound of their voice. So on top of their body being gone so are their memories. I wonder how much longer I'll be able to remember her laugh. When will I wake up and not remember her at all? When will she turn into just a concept?
The holidays are hard.
P.S. I saw this somewhere while surfing today:
"If in Heaven we don't meet
Hand in hand, we'd bare the heat
And if it ever gets too hot
Pepsi-Cola hits the spot"
I like it.
your mother is still alive, just in a different way that you cant fully be a part of yet, and she puts dreams together special for you!