Geez, a big day. My best friend is getting married. Married. Married. Married. I can't believe it. On Saturday. Geez. Married. I don't even know what to say about it. I haven't even met the guy. I probably will tomorrow and I'm so freakin nervous. I can't go to sleep. This guy could change my life. It's insanely too soon but I know that she'll give it all she's got. On top of being my friend she's my cousin so my whole family is buzzing. Everyone is thinking that she's pregnant. (She's not.) My phone was ringing all day. When I hear the word "marriage" I cringe. I don't think I'll ever get there regardless of the guy. Women in my family chew men up and spit them out broken. I know that that could happen with or without a binding legal agreement but it makes it worse when you have to divide everything. Sidenote: Jenn, read my other diary (valerie102). I wrote you a letter.