Listening to: Maroon 5 - Sunday Morning
Feeling: good
I stayed up until 5 this morning doing nothing. It felt good. I'm still feeling good.
It's finally sinking in that I'm in my twenties now. It's insane how fast time flies once you get out of high school. And how different people are once they get out from under their parents. My cousin/friend, Jenn just got her own place. And it's a weird feeling. Although she's only ten months younger than me I think of her as my baby sister. Sigh... Things change.
My computer is infected with spyware and adware again (the !THIRD! time in !TWO! months) and I might have to crash it again. Eee it's irratating. And it's not like I don't have every kind of anti-virus, anti-spyware that they make. Machines are evil.
I'm fasting again tomorrow.
More later...
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2:03 am
I said "more later" and now its later. I'm going to bed soon. For once I'm tired at night. I just have to say that my friend Juliette is one of the most inspirational people I know. Like she can wrap her mind around something in a totally new way and just blow you away. Reading her diary is like meeting somebody that you just know is going to be big one day. You want to savor everything and digest it and remember. And it can't be duplicated, it's magical.
so why do u need others appoval
why did u choose to give them the power and now what are u doing
if u could do one thing in your life what would it be
God is dead
we dont have the same connection to him that the romans and dark ages middle and stuff
people cant find comfrut in nature any more they dont care the sun also raises
people dont want to think they want to be lead like sheep
nowadays with our machines and cars and jobs its hard to raise above and just be.
good night
have fun at school
now adays we have less responisblite then they did
look at modern girls and whores back way then and not much different
us guys like leting the world look at are underware while back then they all wore suits and hats
i miss that
also i guess they lived there lives and most of their deilluisons
were broken and lost for good
while we still
old people hate us cause we are young?
ahahahhaha
they are bitter at least
people are depressed and upset cause they care too much?
hahahahahahhahahahahah
the world is a mass and it affects us in ways we cant really expain
its from this one guy that help define existentialism
its has alot of meaning it
u most likly need to go to ur local libaray to find books on this
why do old people think u care too little and why do u think we care too much?
god is dead
nature is dying but fight back with vengances
can u think of something mabe
?
ever read into existentialism?
u need to go deeper i think
there is lots to
yea
i fail that class
u shouldnt slam your own state
no u shouldnt
yea many people dont know that
its happening
and some people think they are too cool to step in one and im like hey man i got to go in almost everytime im near one
oh yea
so u dont got an ideal of how to define us?
where are u?
your the writer u tell me
just look at it all
big shoes u want to fill
i got that book at goodwill for like 75cents
goodwill is happening
oh yea
so yea
i hope so
so my choice isnt all that great think about it u could do alot with a book
books have shaped our world alot
so dont cut urself short
that cave thing is from Plato
its about the nature of truth
so what is your book going to be about?
thats like one thing i really want to do
i think i would want to directly alter the world for the better
i can do in indirectly but not the same
i like to make believe what people are thinking of me
yea its sick and strange but it gives me control
u are capable of being in charge of urself because u are urself clearly
exactly
close your eyes and run in the cave
u may find the way out
thats a lot younger!
did you buy your anti virus stuff for your computer? like in a store? what kind do you have? i need to get some.
i dont go out much
i just started talking to this girl which is like the first in years it seems and she isnt what i really want
i just dont feel happy i guess
like is this the way my life is suppose to be
me working paying bill not really having time for things i like and being so alone it seems
its weird
so like how did u come up with that,
that your in control of yourself?
sadly
likly to be that way for a long time
why was your easter so good?
so hey
how u been?
life treating u good?
i hope so
man is the product of nature and god so in a sick way machines are just reflections of us of nature and god
yea
fasting?
are u sure that in another sick way u are doing this to keep thin?
time is fleeting
machines are the product of man
fasting again?
weird
yea
well
hello
okay, you have a good night too.
:-)
that made me laugh out loud, ha ha ha... no mary didnt have the pill although im sure she wished she had something like that... heres the dirt on the jesus family [i dont know their last name] there was a couple of kids from josephs first marriage and then a couple of kids from mary, he had four brothers and two sisters and john the baptist was very possibly his cousin! i also watched this show on national
cheetos are my favorite!!!
i saw a show the other day about how there is new evidence that shows that jesus was probably not an only child either, im so glad that people are starting to show him more in a human light and as far as his looks, that is so crazy how white people couldnt stand the thought of jesus not looking like them so they just had to totally make up his looks, i
i gave up chips, candy and chocolate and i craved cheetoes the most out of anything.
:-/