So..I'm a senior in High School and i'll be 18 in less than 2 weeks and i have no direction in my life. meaning i don't know what to do with myself after HS. I got accepted to the colleges i applied to but i can't decide between my top 2 choices. I want to go to Winthrop b/c of the good education and its location...but i want to go to USC b/c its close to home and my b/f. i feel like if i leave Columbia, SC for Rock Hill, SC i'll no longer have a b/f that i love so very much. He says stuff like we won't see each other at all...but i think we'd be able to handle it. i don't know. i feel like i do a lot of things to please other people...and never do anything to please myself. I'm often described as too compasionate...i never knew there was such a thing but..there must be b/c I'm the definition. Although on this journal i make it seem like i care more about myself than anyone but i really don't...i'm just taking out my frustrations here. there's a lot of other frustrations that i take out on people...like my mom...b/c i've had enough of doing shit for other people. i really have...i just want to do something for myself..i wish i just had the ability to splurge and do lots of things for myself. it really sucks when you do so much for someone or something and never get anything in return.